She told me to title this PM fucking S
so i am....
what the fuck is the deal with all this hormonal bullshit anyway? And how does one go about turning it off? i mean, seriously???? once a fucking month i cry and am irritable and bloat to the point that my pants barely fit and i crave junk food and chocolate, and seem to need a severe beating every other minute of my life in order to maintain my humanity....so, really....WTF?!?!?!
and poor G- i mean She gets stuck having to deal with all this crap while she has to put up with her other issues, and i cant get a grip. i've never had it this bad before- its never been a problem like it has been lately- ya know, i think that guys have it easy- all they have to do is figure out how to stay outta our way, but we gotta figure out how to live with this shit.
And here's the kicker- all i want to do is go home so that i'm not being a grump with G, but being home alone would only depress the shit outta me even more...how bout that for a no win situation. Oh, dont get me wrong, She's being very tolerant of this...but really, i mean, how in the hell do you figure out how to balance this? and why cant i just shut this fucking thing off? i'm thinking very seriously about going back on depo-provera, and just hoping i dont gain another 100 pounds....cause that would make me about suicidal, so it's likely that G wont let me go back on that anyway...i would be self-destructive beyond belief if i gained that kind of weight back.
all i want to do is be held and just have a good long cry- i got a nasty little attitude adjustment this afternoon and wanted to cry but just couldnt- i wish i knew why, cause all i want to do is cry. oh well, maybe tomorrow.
what the fuck is the deal with all this hormonal bullshit anyway? And how does one go about turning it off? i mean, seriously???? once a fucking month i cry and am irritable and bloat to the point that my pants barely fit and i crave junk food and chocolate, and seem to need a severe beating every other minute of my life in order to maintain my humanity....so, really....WTF?!?!?!
and poor G- i mean She gets stuck having to deal with all this crap while she has to put up with her other issues, and i cant get a grip. i've never had it this bad before- its never been a problem like it has been lately- ya know, i think that guys have it easy- all they have to do is figure out how to stay outta our way, but we gotta figure out how to live with this shit.
And here's the kicker- all i want to do is go home so that i'm not being a grump with G, but being home alone would only depress the shit outta me even more...how bout that for a no win situation. Oh, dont get me wrong, She's being very tolerant of this...but really, i mean, how in the hell do you figure out how to balance this? and why cant i just shut this fucking thing off? i'm thinking very seriously about going back on depo-provera, and just hoping i dont gain another 100 pounds....cause that would make me about suicidal, so it's likely that G wont let me go back on that anyway...i would be self-destructive beyond belief if i gained that kind of weight back.
all i want to do is be held and just have a good long cry- i got a nasty little attitude adjustment this afternoon and wanted to cry but just couldnt- i wish i knew why, cause all i want to do is cry. oh well, maybe tomorrow.
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