NIght time gentle reminders

When it gets to this point of the night- ya know, when i'm supposed to be headed down to bed, but i know G is staying up for a while longer- i am gently reminded of how i feel about Her and my time with Her. Sometimes during the day i get testy or irritated- i mean, honestly, we are two human adults (BOTH WOMEN) living together- it can't always be rays of sunshine and bouquets of roses. BUT when i get to this point right now i feel this deeply rooted hesitation to get up and go to my room. Why? Not because i want to disobey and incur the wrath of G- that isnt it at all. It is simply because once i go down there, i wont get to see her until the morning. And sometimes, that is just too far away. Sometimes when i go to bed at night, i find myself laying awake wishing i was Her child so i could climb into Her bed claiming that there are monsters in my room or something like that. Not to BE her child, but to be able to have that much longer with Her.

i find myself typing this thinking what an idiot i must sound like, but i know that i'm not. i know that it is simply because i truly value what we have and what She means to me, and what i mean to Her and that each waking moment with Her is really very precious to me (even those moments when i may lose sight of that).

i guess this is just my way of making sure that She knows how i feel about Her. That if i never had the chance to tell Her again, She would never doubt my love and devotion to Her and to our family.