Last night

OK, i was told to blog because my site was boring...lol so, here we go.

Last night i was on the receiving end of an hour long spanking from G. These "good girl" spankings are the best because they are for pleasure. By the end of one of these spankings, I am in "sub-space" which is basically this euphoric high that is similar to a high that you would get from using drugs. During a spanking, endorphins are released in your body, and the amount of endorphins that are released during something as long as and intense as what we did last night is enough to keep my head swimming for quite some time. In fact, i am thinking back to last night, and am still experiencing some left-over effects. :)

Since i have been asked before about how spankings are between she and i, i will try to recall as specifically as possible what we did last night. First, she did a gentle warm up with her hand. Oh, i was naked and laying across my bed. That is the most relaxing position for me to be in, which lets me concentrate on the feelings, and pay attention to her rather than discomfort in my feet or wrists (which happens from non-related medical stuff). She went on to use a few different straps, the flogger, the paddle, the yardstick- i guess maybe there were 5 or 6 implements out on the bed. The rest are tucked away in a "travel bag" for things that are used on others. She did a few different things last night- spanked my calves and the bottoms of my feet a little. The feet hurt like anything, the calves stung like crazy, but it was a cool way to break up the spanks to my butt. One nice thing about the monotonous spanking on my butt is that i was very moist from that. The shock of the pain to my calves and feet would break that up, and i would have to re-find that relaxation into the spanking again, which gave me a roller-coaster feeling. That was cool.

i could tell by the look on her face that she was bored. i would imagine that just sitting there spanking a person could be boring, and i told her that she didnt have to keep going if she was bored. i had reached a happy place and was content to be there. Well, she got this crazy idea and told me to turn over. So, there i was, on my back, looking up at her, feeling VERY exposed and vulnerable and LOVING every minute of that feeling. She proceeded to spank my breasts and my ahem...and while it hurt, there was also this tickling sensation that i still dont quite understand. i kept covering and folding my legs up and trying to block, because everything was very playful- and despite the pain, i loved the feelings. The exposure and vulnerability i felt is not something i have felt in quite some time (prolly since i was tied to to the bed for the first time), and i thoroughly enjoyed being that vulnerable with her. i love that we can play like that. i love that i can trust her and do those things with her and explore those feelings and be ok with her. she kept pushing my legs open at my knees, and i found that to be VERY exciting. when she told me to put my hands on my head, and she had my knees pushed open in that"butterfly" position, i was VERY VERY wet. Probably the only other thing she could have done was to actually stick something up there or play with my clit. i probably would have exploded if she had done that.

After all that, she actually ran her hands very lightly over my skin, and that was very relaxing and comforting for me. i would have thought that would have really really turned me on, but that wasnt what i felt. what i felt at that point was just complete happiness and at-one-ness with my Domme. when she sat back and i put my head on her lap, she rubbed my back for quite some time, and all i could think of was how amazingly happy i am with her, and how thankful i am to be her sub, and how "connected" i felt to her. it's funny to me- when we were with eddie, the orgasms he brought me to after a play session were wonderful. but i remember feeling sometimes that i wished we didnt go there, because all i wanted was to be with G- well, after last night, now i know what it was i was longing for at those times. Not the sex. Not the orgasm (although i took care of those needs later on), but it was the strengthening of the bond and our connection. That is what we have that makes life so special. A bond deeper than any other i know. i wouldnt change a thing.