Reset complete

OUCH! Newsflash for anyone who doesn't know it- but canes really really hurt. And Dommes weilding them who have a point to make sure know how to drive their point home. In all fairness, i earned every stripe i got- but it doesn't mean they hurt any less. In fact, for like the first time ever, it really hurts to be sitting on a chair. i have had times where it's been warm or uncomfy to sit, but not hurt. The pressure of the chair on my butt and legs and sit spot is NASTY! And ya know what made it worse??? Watching Miss G laff at me as we sat at the table for lunch. Sadistic Domme. oh wait- that's redundant. :)

i do have to say though- in all honesty.... the warm fuzzies i get inside after Miss G tans my hide is like no other. It's a safe place to be. It's a warm and caring and loving and nurturing place that she provides, and i love every minute of being there. Sometimes i really dont understand why She wants me, but i am so glad that She does. i know there are times i am not displaying the best behavior that i should, and i know that i can expect to be punished when i do, and knowing that She will be there to keep me in line is a wonderful feeling. i know, i'm all sentimental- but that happens to me after my reset button has been pushed. And holy cow, does She know how to push the dang thing!

i am finally in a place that is really home. Where i am loved and accepted for my good and my bad. A place where i dont put on shows for people in order to be liked. A place where i can be myself, even when that self is not the nicest person in the world, and i can rest assured that although i might get spanked for my behavior, my being loved is not conditional upon my being anything other than me.